If I get the job with that missionary Then with the force of your God I can steal your dream And everything will be… Everything will be… Everything will be… There’s a certain force, it’s imaginary (to me) But if it’s real to you I can finally redeem And everything will be… Everything will be… Everything will be… Fine

Today has a way of scarring your eyes With negative light, but it's a disguise I put on my shades, and see through the lies The convenient truth is Light is on the way, we'll be having a fun time It's such a lovely day, we should pocket the sunshine And never give it back, even if there's a heat wave Or terrorist attack, it will just be a close shave, I know I know That every bomb has a silver lining, I know I know It won't be long until Everything works out nice in the end The sun will marry the moon It'll be fine Why don't we sit back mellow again And have a nice afternoon? It'll be fine I go for a walk, the sidewalk is cracked I'm not superstitious, but I made a pact With old Mother Earth, she'd get off my back If I get off hers Light is on the way, we'll be having a fun time It's such a lovely day, we should pocket the sunshine And never give it back, even if there's a heat wave We're stalling on the track, it will just be a close shave, I know I know That in a snap, all the birds will sing, I know I know I'm full of crap, but still Everything works out nice in the end The sun will marry the moon It'll be fine Why don't we sit back mellow again And have a nice afternoon? It'll be fine Fine Fine Fine. (Everything is gonna be…) Fine Fine Fine. (Everything is gonna be…) Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine… (Everything is gonna be…) Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine… (Everything is gonna be…) Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine…

Held in a bong hit, sitting in a Hot tub in south Wisconsin, I feel Amazing when I’m all alone Switching between porn and RoboCop Turned off my cell phone, drank a bottle Of wine and read a Cometbus and Passed out naked, shriveling, stumbled To bed in a fucked up sleepwalk I got so tired of discussing my future I started avoiding the people I love Evenings of silence and mornings of nausea I read the worst thing ever in a Bathrobe of off-white terry cloth Translated by technology from Your voice extremely inaccurately I got so tired of discussing my future I started avoiding the people I love Evenings of silence and mornings of nausea Shake and sweat and I can’t throw up I got so tired of discussing my future That I walk through my life like I’m the only one With evenings of silence and mornings of nausea Shake and sweat and I can’t throw up, oh no! Cleaned up the empty bottles, let the Smoke out through chilly windows I used the stationary bike And I watched the end of The Price Is Right Ordered an egg-white sandwich and I Drove south through mid-day traffic and I Called up some folks I truly love and Hung up after they said hello I got so tired of discussing my future I started avoiding the people I love Evenings of silence and mornings of nausea Shake and sweat and I can’t throw up I got so tired of discussing my future That I walk through my life like I’m the only one With evenings of silence and mornings of nausea

Let's stay in In your bed (In particular) Where our shared past used to be Where we felt bad made a scene We can sit down knee to knee We can stay friends if you’re keen Scented Memory Just in case This is our last good month I’m scared How could I surely know How could I ever grow My eyes scan Just in case This is our last good month I’m scared How could I surely know How could I ever grow Weather or not You took my breath away, in a way Smothered is an ok way to go ”WAY TO GO!” And I want to say thanks Everything seeps away Please hold me Everything seeps away Please hold on to me It’s too rare in life To find someone you love That can stick around After thunder clouds It’s too rare in life To find someone you love To open up to (sometimes) And not regret you did too

grace finds a place on an unforgiving face the black sheep attacked by the simple feeling that a name re arranged makes it feel a certain way the meat wants to see sinful electricity even through the pain animals cannot change dance with the skeletons and float away echoes thru the trees hear their voices singing come home with us my friend and we'll be at peace pray for a change a cocoon about to break but now you feel strange and the wings started to take shape eat and then die all your siblings cast aside too see with new eyes a world ready to despise you hear though unclear how the whispers start to cut through now but somehow you can feel that it's about you wow what a freak a pariah so to speak oh how could they seek to kill something so unique even through the pain animals cannot change dance with the skeletons and float away echoes thru the trees hear their voices singing come home with us my friend and we'll be at peace

Bent down to stand still for a while Pieces are keeping broken In the blue, I’ve got a letterbox I'd never check Throwing a day to the incinerators In the blue, In the midst of noon Bent down to fling, fling to the floor Clocks are ticking, slowly fast Ceilings and floors keep getting closer I’ll breathe down your neck all the walls attached But can’t have you intervening Pinned down to see all my teeth are fine Now I enter a room inside my room Been there following color pinned eye me Try stop staggering and try to stand still to get a hold your self fast I’ll breathe down your neck all the walls attached But can’t have you intervening

매일매일이 똑같아 하루하루가 지겨워 뭘 위해 살아가는지 그딴건 잊어버린지 오래 만화에서나 보던 그런 청춘은 없어 매일매일이 똑같아 하루하루를 견뎌내 내일은 버린지 오래 오늘보다는 나을지 궁금해 만화에서나 보던 그런 청춘은 없어 눈에 보이지 않는 허무함 뿐 절망감 뿐 이대로 패배한채 방구석에 처박혀 무기력하게 보낼건가 찐따무직백수모쏠아싸병신새끼 사회부적응 골방외톨이 누구보다 간절했었어 무대에도 서고싶었어 락스타가 되고싶었어 만화에서나 보던 그런 청춘은 없어 눈에 보이지 않는 허무함 뿐 절망감 뿐 이대로 패배한채 방구석에 처박혀 치르는 무기력한 반란 찐따무직백수모쏠아싸병신새끼 사회부적응 골방외톨이 나도 유명해지고 싶어 무대에도 서고싶어 락스타가 되고싶어 찐따무직백수모쏠아싸병신새끼 사회부적응 골방외톨이 누구보다 간절했었어 무대에도 서고싶었어 락스타가 되고싶었어 다신 오지않을 스무살의 청춘반란 평생 잊지못할 스무살의 청춘반란 못할걸 잘 알면서도 안될걸 잘 알면서도 그래도 발버둥치고 싶어 누가 뭐라해도 내 이야긴 죽지않아 누가 뭐라해도 내 노래는 죽지않아 내일도 해는 뜨겠지 그렇게 살아가겠지 그게 우리들이 사는 세상이니까 - Every day is the same Every day is boring as fuck What am I living for I've forgotten that already There's no such youth as I've seen in cartoons Every day is the same Every day I endure I gave up tomorrow I wonder if it's better than today There's no such youth as I've seen in cartoons Only invisible despair and hopelessness here Will you be defeated like this, and get stuck in the corner of the room, and let it go helpless? Loser jobless virgin jackass fucking dickhead Antisocial hikikomori I was more desperate than anyone else I wanted to be on stage I wanted to be a rockstar There's no such youth as I've seen in cartoons Only a invisible despair and hopelessness here In the corner of the room, defeated like this, now I start a helpless rebellion Loser jobless virgin jackass fucking dickhead Antisocial hikikomori I want to be famous I want to be on stage I want to be a rockstar Loser jobless virgin jackass fucking dickhead Antisocial hikikomori I was more desperate than anyone else I wanted to be on stage I wanted to be a rockstar 20 years old youth rebellion that will never come again 20 years old youth rebellion that will never be forgotten I know I won't, I know I can't, but I still want to struggle No matter what anyone says, my story won't die No matter what anyone says, my song won't die The sun will rise again tomorrow We will live like that anyway Because that's the world we live in

if you want it bad enough, things will get better but that's not the truth and you know better so you're trying hard enough but nothing is better but you won't quit trying 'cause you know better nothing comes easy and nothing comes free but it just seems like i can't get out of this heap of shit i must have stumbled into by accident disorder and script i must've stumbled into it swallow me whole can i just get my body back i like dogs much better than cats and wolves and rats and bats that i use when i get imaginative i like dogs much better than people could ever be

burn like the liars in the breeze like debris and pate burn out like the fires in the way of the briars in the way love you in a minor way and maybe it's ok that i want to heel your heart from june to may i feel gay you is the itty kitty cat cat she purrs her melodious melodies low with teeth like a mountain lion and eyes like a sad sad doe but you leaps over the fence but you kept leapt over the fence whencecame the neat heat wave in my heart came the neat wheat now came the neat wheat, no! and you are my callie fornia because if you were to die i would lose very very many of the fruits of my life grapes and strawberries and cannabis shipped across the world i wish they all could be callie fornia girls

Disappointed ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ 悪いんだよ僕が ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ Disappointed ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ 悪いんだよ僕が ごめん、 ねえ On and on 町の空は On and on 夕暮れ空 On and on 飛ばした羽は On and on 気のせいでさ Disappointed ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ 悪いんだよ僕が ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ Disappointed ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ 悪いんだよ僕が ごめん、 ねえ On and on 町の空は On and on 夕暮れ空 On and on 飛ばした羽は On and on 気のせいでさ 本屋さんで買う首吊りの仕方 下校途中　怖くなったんだ なんていうか全てに疲れたんだろ みんなバカだからさ 笑っていた君が僕に近くなる レイプして殴り続けてく 虚しさに潰されてしまえばいい 君を犯したあとに ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ Disappointed ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ ごめん、 ねえ ごめんね

불안에 떨어대는 빛을잃은 눈빛과　 눈빛이 갉아먹은 상처많은 손톱들 손톱이 가리키는 수평선을 보면은 불쾌한 자유로움, 시원한 그 초조함 지우려 지우려고 했던 나의 기억과 기억에 너무나도 익숙해진 습관에 습관이 박아버린 얼어붙은 어제와 어제를 짊어지는 힘겨운 내 매일이 언젠가 여길 벗어날수 있을까 나 혼자서 이 길을 갈수 있을까 귀신처럼 떠도는 이 무력함 난 겁이나 이 도시에서 별을 셀수 있을까 이 어둠에서 빛을 볼수 있을까 난 괜찮다고 거짓말을 하지만 상해버린 맘은 속질 않아 생각이 꿈결을 삼키는 밤 아침을 미루려 지새는 밤 떨림이 멈출질 몰라 난 겁이나 모두가 하나둘씩 떠나가는 순간과 모두를 하나둘씩 잊어가는 실수들 누구를 마주할때 드러난 어색함과 누구를 사랑할때 드러나는 미숙함 아무도 눈치채지 못할나의 슬픔에 하루하루 뒤틀려가, 반짝이던 기억이 세상에 나를 지울 귀 터지는 소음이 비가 돼 이도시를 집어삼킬 때까지 "조금만 더 기다려줄수 있을까? 이런건 조금 이르지는 않아?" 문앞에 선채 주저함이 남아 난 겁이나 난 배신없는 꿈을 꿀수 있을까? 난 후회없는 사랑을 할수 있을까? 꿈꿨던 고도 위에설수 있을까 날 둘러싼 이 벽을 헐수 있을까? 꿈길이 방안을 삼키는 밤 희망이 현실을 흐리는 밤 아직은 일러 난 겁이나 - Fear, shaking the dead eyes, Eyes, hurting the scarred nails, Nails, pointing at the horizon, There are uncanny freedom, and anxiousness Tried to, Tried to erase those memories, Memories, forming a habits, Habits, fixing the frozen yesterday Yesterday, burdening everyday Will I escpae this place someday? Will I be able to go alone this way? Powerlessness, that wonders around like a ghost I am scared Can I count stars in this city? Can I see the light in the dark? I lie that I'm all right But scarred heart don't fall for that Thoughts, gulping the haze of dream, Nights, put off the dreadful morning Tremble, they would never stop, I am scared The moment where every people leave one by one The mistake where every people are forgotten one by one Awkwardness, coming out when I face someone Clumsiness, seeping out when I love someone From the sadness no one would notice, Glowing memories are distorted everyday Untill the noise that would erase me from this world Becomes a rain and feed on this city "Can you wait for me just a little? Isn't this too soon for me?" Hesitating, standing in a doorstep I am scared Will I dream no betraying dream? Will I love no regretting love? Will stand at the hight I dreamt? Will I break all walls around me? Dream, eating my dark room Hope, bluring the reality It's too soon, I am scared

그런 표정으로 나를 보아도 니가 원하는 대로 되진 않아 너와 같은 사람이 되지 못해 미안하단 생각도 들진 않아 별일없이 하루가 지나가도 혹시 모를 불안감만이 남네 아무도 말을 걸어주질 않아 안심하고 시간을 보내줬네 너의 비웃음도 흘러가 흘러가 흘러가 수많은 날들도 흘러가 흘러가 흘러가 어느덧 해는 저물어가고 오늘도 하루를 버텼나요 시체처럼 죽은 듯 버텼나요 그리고 두 눈을 막고 기다리면서 잠 못 드는 밤을 보내 왠지 기억속에 내가 밟혀도 제발 나를 잘라내줬으면 해 왠지 기억속에 내가 밟혀도 제발 나를 잘라내줬으면 해 - Even if you look at me like that I can't be who you want me to be I can’t become the same person as you I’m not even sorry about that The day ends without anything happening And only anxiety remains Nobody would talk to me I'm glad it went like that Even your mocking laughter They flow away, flow away, flow away And these countless days They flow away, flow away, flow away Before I knew it, the sun had set Did you survive today as well? Did you bear through it as if you were dead, like a corpse? I close my eyes and wait Spending another sleepless night Even if you remember me Please, I want you to cut me off Even if you remember me Please, I want you to cut me off

Every time I think of you I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue It's no problem of mine, but it's a problem I find Living a life that I can't leave behind There's no sense in telling me The wisdom of the fool won't set you free But that's the way that it goes and it's what nobody knows Well, every day my confusion grows Every time I see you falling I get down on my knees and pray I'm waiting for that final moment You say the words that I can't say I feel fine and I feel good I'm feeling like I never should Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday? I'm not sure what this could mean I don't think you're what you seem I do admit to myself that if I hurt someone else Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be Every time I see you falling I get down on my knees and pray I'm waiting for that final moment You say the words that I can't say Every time I see you falling I get down on my knees and pray I'm waiting for that final moment You say the words that I can't say